Friday, December 26, 2014
Monday, December 15, 2014
Feliz Navidad
Christmas is up at our house. I also convinced Hermana Escobar to buy Christmas lights. They were like $2 so we have them in our room. |
This is us with a member. All the youth are so sweet and love to come with us on Sundays. It kind of slows us down, but I like it. They help lots with Spanish. |
Monday, December 8, 2014
El es la Davida!!!!!!
Ok, first things first, I need to clarify something about
Hermana Escobar. Everyone seems to think she is this mean trainer and I don’t
want that at all. At first we didn’t really understand each other’s language
and culture plus fear of new things, she has never trained before. Anyway after
three weeks together we are best friends, truly. She helps me so much with the
language and I help her with confidence, I hope, I don’t know… Something I have learned is missionaries aren’t
magically perfect people and so it’s perfect. We both just help each other with
our weakness and it’s great. I love her sooo much. This week was her one year
in the mission, it was way fun celebrating that. Today is my two month’s, can
you believe it!!
Ok, now this week was really hard... there is a holiday, well it’s actually today, the 8th of Diciembre, called “The Virgin of Ca A Cupe”. It’s this huge statue of Mary in a city, ummm, I’m not sure which direction, but I don’t think it’s too far from here. Hermana Escobar served there and loved it. When I first saw a pic of the statue I thought it was Christ, like the one in Brazil, that’s what it looks like, but it’s actually Mary. Anyway everyone leaves their homes and jobs to make a pilgrimage to Ca A Cupe every year. It’s been really hard because most people are fairly religious here but are really open to what we have to say. But this whole week when they realize that we aren’t Catholic they are like “Nope, we don’t want to talk to you. We believe in the Virgin!!!” or when we ask “Can we pass by Monday?”, “Nope, Mary will be here so you can’t come.” Each time I told Hermana Escobar it’s ok. People need to be mean to us every once in a while so we know what it’s like. But each day it seemed they got ruder and ruder the closer today got.
Ok, now this week was really hard... there is a holiday, well it’s actually today, the 8th of Diciembre, called “The Virgin of Ca A Cupe”. It’s this huge statue of Mary in a city, ummm, I’m not sure which direction, but I don’t think it’s too far from here. Hermana Escobar served there and loved it. When I first saw a pic of the statue I thought it was Christ, like the one in Brazil, that’s what it looks like, but it’s actually Mary. Anyway everyone leaves their homes and jobs to make a pilgrimage to Ca A Cupe every year. It’s been really hard because most people are fairly religious here but are really open to what we have to say. But this whole week when they realize that we aren’t Catholic they are like “Nope, we don’t want to talk to you. We believe in the Virgin!!!” or when we ask “Can we pass by Monday?”, “Nope, Mary will be here so you can’t come.” Each time I told Hermana Escobar it’s ok. People need to be mean to us every once in a while so we know what it’s like. But each day it seemed they got ruder and ruder the closer today got.
Wednesday we had exchanges with the sister training leaders
and it was really hard in lots of ways. First off, I had to navigate us to the investigators’
homes. That in itself was a huge miracle! The other thing was that it was really
hard to teach with someone I had never practiced or really ever met before. The
whole day I kept thinking and realizing to appreciate Hermana Escobar and
everything she does for me. At the end of the day when I finally saw her again
we just hugged and I wanted to cry and never let anyone take her from me
again!!! The best part was she felt the same way or at least that’s what she
told me... jaja Anyway, the one thing about the sister training leader was she
was good luck. Everyone that never seems to be home, was, and they received us
and it was great. We had a lesson with Pedro and he recommitted to a new date.
A while back we got a referral to a part of our area that’s
really, really far away. The farthest we go is Las Mercedes and I wanna die. It’s
like 4 kilometers there and then in total after making our whole loop it’s like
10 or 11. But Pindty is 6 just to get there so then 6 back and also walking
around so in total it was going to be like 14 kilometers. I don’t really know what that means, I just
know that walking on these roads in the hot sun really takes a toll on you. But
I am learning to smile even when I am soooo hot. I read a talk this week about
missionary work and Elder Ballard said don’t just walk around like robots
saying hi to everyone. That’s how I am. I am sooo tired and hot! So I am
learning to smile and be happy, even when I am hot.
Anyway we decided that we need to go to the far-away place.
We keep meaning to go and then something goes wrong, like it rains or I don’t
know, we just talk each other out of it. We keep waiting for a member to take
us, but he is always busy, so finally we decide to go Friday. But, like always,
things start to go wrong. The zone leaders need us to submit numbers. We don’t
have the numbers, we had to go home and then go to the cyber, the internet
place I am at now, and then enter them. So we got off to a late start - half
way there we are so tired and we don’t wanna go any farther and we start
thinking maybe we won’t go today. Then Hermana Escobar is like “No we are going
to always come up with a reason not to go.” So we got up and sang hymns and
laughed and practiced Spanish and before we knew it we were there. It didn’t
even feel like that far of a walk. We start contacting, we knew there was
someone there that really needed us.
The first person is like “Ya I´m Catholic” and he was just
kind of being rude. We were like thanks and left. Then we come to a lady and
she says “si... esta bien passar otro dia?” (yes, come back another day)
uhhhh It’s not like this is super far away from where we live. Sure, we
can come back another day... Then I said
we need to say a prayer because I really want to find someone here.. So we do
and we haven’t even taught a lesson all day and it’s like 4 by now. My comp is
like “Ok, we are teaching a lesson at the next house!”
So we walk up and it’s a lady and two kids and they are all
sitting drinking mate and she just motions for us to come. We sit down all
sweaty and she offers us water and things are going great. I compliment her garden
and her house and then … I didn’t really know what happened. Hermana Escobar explained
later that she thought we were with this group of kids that come and learn Spanish
and do humanitarian work. But Hermana Escobar explains no we are missionaries
from the Church of Jesus Christ..... then all I see is her jumping up Mormones
and spills her pitcher of water, kicks her hat under the table, almost falls
over her chair, all the time saying I DON’T WANNA TALK TO YOU! I don’t want to talk to any Mormons. We believe
in the virgin. Get out of my house.... soooo we awkwardly get up and I´m like
buen dia. hahahaha Then we leave hahah
and I just start laughing sooo hard, to keep from crying probably. hahah It was
so funny. She just turned on us like that. Needless to say, the next two
lessons weren’t quite that bad but you could tell they were just thinking about
the virgin the whole time. One lady said “Yaaa we are all having a party Sunday
for the virgin so I can’t come to church with you. I will be at my church for
the virgin! ah It got so annoying. It’s like the one time of the year that everyone
is super actively going to the Catholic churches. Anyway, then we planned to
find our contact, but when we started that way hahah.
I don’t even know how to explain this but there was a man on
a horse and Hermana Escobar is just sitting there writing in her planner and
the man has a rope tied around the horns of a cow... I am learning so much
about animals. I thought only bulls had horns but like every cow here has horns
and they are all female. I don’t get it. Anyway his son is hitting the cow with
a stick and yelling. Apparently the man on the horse is yelling “Get out of
here, it’s dangerous”. Hermana Escobar is like it’s just a cow. We need to go
that way. hahahah I am like ummm I think we need to move.... finally she sees
that the cow is jumping everywhere crazy and running right at us. Ok so every
house has a fence and the cow was running all over the road and the sides so I
was scared to just stand on the side and hope it passed us. So we start running
down the road away from this crazy cow and every time we would stop running and
look back, it would stop. Then the man and the horse and the cow and the kid
with a stick would be running again so we would have to run for our life again because
there was nowhere to go but back down the road!! It was sooo embarrassing. One
time I really thought we were going to die. They seemed so close and the cow
was running so fast and Hermana Escobar was so slow. I was about to leave her.
hahha I look over and this whole family is just watching from their porch, two girls
in dresses running from this crazy cow. They don’t offer to let us in their
yard. They just watch as we try and run away. It was seriously so terrifying.
Anyway, needless to say, we left Pindty feeling a little discouraged, but I
know that the Lord needed us there for some reason and we are going back Wednesday.
I know that we will find someone waiting for the gospel there.
Ok, I hope you all have been watching and sharing He is the
Gift. It is so amazing. We share it in every lesson, so I have watched it a
million times. Each time I am filled with a spirt and love of Christmas! They
always ask if we get to go home for Christmas and they feel so bad when we say
no, we are here... but that video brings the spirit instantly to every lesson!
After a really hard week we had high hopes that Pedro and
others would come to church. We had 4 with a date to be baptized so they needed
to come to keep their date. The elders have been having the same problem
getting people to church so we all shared our investigators’ names with each other
and prayed for each one individually. Sunday came and we get to church and no
one’s investigators came. Not one. The elders hunted down a boy from one of
their families, but that was all. It was really hard. I was feeling really,
really bad and church is always hard because they only speak Guadani so I never
have a clue at all what’s going on. But in Relief Society we all had to go
around and say our testimony. When it came to me I just started bawling, looking
around at these 10 women in this little classroom in a church in Paraguay, speaking
two languages I don’t know. I just said it was really hard for me to decide to
serve a mission and be away from my family. I didn’t realize how hard it is
until I was here, but I know that this church is true and that’s why I am here.
(it probably didn’t really come out like that, but that’s what I tried to say).
I just started crying so hard as I listened to everyone’s testimony in this psycho
language because I could feel the truth even though I couldn’t understand. The
woman sitting next to me, who I love a lot, was going to be sealed Saturday and
when they announced it I was sooo excited! They have two little kids that are
so sweet and I kept thinking of the missionaries that baptized them. One of the
women I love feeds us every Friday. After Relief Society she grabbed me and
hugged me and told me she knows it’s really hard but she loves me so much and I
am like her daughter (she reminds me a lot of Dianna Greene). I just was filled with a love of my members.
All Sunday I kept thinking of how amazing they are. They all love us
missionaries so much. They feed us and accept us in their homes so much. Anyway,
then I go in to sacrament meeting and they announce that our building is being
expanded. They are starting in one week and I just cried and cried because I
know that the Lord loves his children in Paraguay so much. We seriously have
the smallest church ever. Our Relief Society room is just one of those tiny
classrooms. We had 95 in attendance at church on Sunday and my whole heart was filled
with love for each of them.
Sunday night we found an amazing woman, Elba. After another
hard day we were just trying to get our contacts and we felt we should share
the video, which turned in to sharing el Libro de Mormon. It was so cool. She
accepted a date, not at first. She said she was baptized already and then we
explained to her and she said that makes so much sense!!!!! and accepted a date
and el libro de Mormon. In her prayer she thanked the Lord for sending us. We
left feeling sooo hopeful and thinking that even though this week was really
hard there are moments and lessons that go perfect. And that’s what we are here
for. Each time we have someone that is mean we think we just have to work that
much harder to find the one waiting for us. I truly believe Elba was waiting
for us! After one really hard lesson Hermana Escobar just wanted to sit down
and cry. I told her that during the lesson I always think about their conversion
story. The lady’s niece was listening. I told Hermana Escobar that one day that
little girl would say “I remember the first missionaries came when I was at my
aunt’s house. They were really happy and gave me candy. I remember my aunt
laughed at them and I felt really bad. Years later two Elders came to my house
and I let them in. As they taught me, the truth filled my heart and I remembered
those first sisters who bore similar testimony. I will always be grateful for
them.” haha We don’t have real conversion
stories yet, so we make them up. But that’s what I always think about. You
never know how the gospel will come to someone.
Lastly I want to FOLLOW UP on my challenge to do the 30 day
Scripture Question (see the entry in November titled “If Elle Wood Can Get In”).
Are you doing it? The most important
part is writing it down. This one thing has been the main faith builder for me
since I have been here. Each day when I am struggling and I think maybe I don’t
even have a testimony, I ask my Father in Heaven and I am always answered. It’s
crazy because some days I turn to the same page as the day before and I think “ugh,
I have been here before”. But I start reading and I find my new answer a few
verses below the other. Or, sometimes, I ask a question and my answer has
nothing to do with what I asked. It’s like the spirit is saying “That’s not
really what you needed today, here is your real answer.” I know that all of
your answers are found in the scriptures. I know that God listens to our
prayers. I have learned that so much these past two months. I feel your prayers
so strong and I hope you feel mine. I love you all and I hope you all
ACCEPT the gift Christ brings. Accept His commandments, His
love, His guidance in our life.
Love, a missionary doing her best to serve the Lord in Paraguay,
Hermana Ball
Monday, December 1, 2014
It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas
So I feel way dumb for thinking when I wrote last week that I had missed Thanksgiving. After reading all the emails I realized I hadn’t. haha But good news is my district leader is not so dead to the world and he arranged for us as a district to go out to eat Wed night. I will hopefully have time to send more pictures. It was way good. It was like some kind of burrito(they don’t really eat much food like that here) so it was a good change of pace. On real Thanksgiving my comp, who had never heard of it before, and I had chicken stuffing I made from a box from Charlsie, raw potatoes, haha (I tried to make mashed potatoes in the microwave, but it didn’t work) and bread. It was great. haha I told her she had to say what she was thankful for and she said me and I just started crying so hard because I didn’t even realize how much I missed all of you till she said that and it made me feel good that someone was happy I am here.
I totally forgot to say last week my greatest blessing!!! so when our President got to the mission he was not pleased with the conditions of the pentions and he has been working hard to get new pentions for us to live in. They have changed almost all of them. The week before I got here ours changed and my comp says the old one had twice as many cockroaches. She thinks the ones we have came in the move. ugggg haha Anyway, our pention is nice and...... we have an air conditioner in our bedroom!!!!!!! It is heaven when we come home soooo sweaty we sometimes just sit in that room. haaha One day we were so hot after walking back from zone conference (30 min there and back) we just ate lunch on our beds ha. But ya it’s really nice. Also all the faucets here are just one temp. You don’t have two faucets even when you are showering. I was telling my comp that I’m not use to the cold showers and she just looked at me so weird. “Did I not tell you about the light switch?” “What light switch????” ummmm She proceeds to tell me there is a magic light switch that makes the water hot!!! hahah She said she is just use to cold showers so she forgets to turn it on.. haha Anyway, so if you were feeling bad for me, don’t. I have cool air at night and a hot shower in the morning. When I shower at night I don’t turn it on, though, because it’s soo hot. You have to shower before bed or its so gross. You will see why after seeing the pictures of my feet
I forgot also to mention the rain. It rained twice my first week and three times this week or two (I can’t remember). Anyway I have never seen anything like it. Leading up to rain it is so hot and there are no clouds and then they come and it just starts pouring rain, like buckets and buckets of rain and all of a sudden the whole road is a river. It’s crazy! It rained last night, so now the whole road is full of puddles. I love it. The first time it rained it was in the afternoon and we had to walk home at 8:30. I kept jumping in all the puddles and getting all muddy. haha My comp just thought I was crazy. hahah It’s hard for me not to act crazy sometimes, like one time we were walking and the Macarena music came on. I started to dance and she looked at me and said Hermana we are representatives of Christ. ha So I have to remember that sometimes. Most of the time it’s not hard to remember, just sometimes, like when I want to play with the kids ....
So to help my pronunciation she makes me read from El Libro de Mormon with a pencil in my mouth repeating after her. This is after I have already read it for 30 min on my own. It’s so hard and my jaw starts to really hurt, so if you want to feel like a big looser put a pencil in your mouth and try to read Spanish its hard and entertaining.
This week we kind of got a little discouraged because every lesson seems to go the same except for the fact that each lesson I feel more confident to say more in the next. So this is pretty much how each lesson goes: we walk to a house, we may know them or may not, clap, they come or we just smile and wave because most the time they are outside all ready, they open the gate, let us in, pull up two chairs, offer us terere (Cold Mate), we tell them no, and then we talk to them a little, get to know them. They are always so chatty. Most of the time they don’t even give us a chance to say we are missionaries. Then finally we bring it in to the convo (AHHH it just started raining again!! hahah I am so happy. My comp said we should bring our umbrellas with, but I talked her out of it. She just looked at me ahhh we will be wet! haha) anyway, then she asks if we can sing. Yep we sing a hymn every lesson in Spanish, no piano, while they stare at us. At first it was hard for me but lately we sing Christmas hymns and I love it. One time they gave us this fruit to eat and I really didn’t want to eat it because they just picked it off the ground, anyway, I put it in my mouth and I had never seen anything like it before. It’s like an orange ball and I am trying to chew and there is a pit and I just keep swirling it around in my mouth. At this moment my trainer says “Let’s sing.” So I sing a whole hymn with this huge pit in my mouth and then when no one was looking I quickly put it in my hand and sat it on the ground next to me. Next we ask to pray and usually they want my comp to say it, which is great. ha But sometimes I say it and I am pretty sure they don’t understand, that’s ok. Then we share the first lesson or sometimes the second, depending, and when it’s the first I say the first vision and sometimes I say it right and mostly I say it wrong. But its magic because the Spirit is always there and I can feel it so strong and we lead them into the baptism invitation and they say “No, I have already been baptized (did you listen to what we said? It didn’t count. It wasn’t necessary. You were a baby ugh) and then we bear a beautiful testimony and the Spirit is there and I tear up because all I can think is they are going to say yes, I know it and I picture their family in the church. We ask again and they just stare at us and don’t answer. It’s so weird. Actually throughout the whole lesson we ask questions like what does the atonement mean to you and they just look at us and say nothing. It’s so weird. I don’t know why some people answer, but for the most part they don’t. Anyway, then we ask if we can come again and share more and we invite them to church and 50 percent say yes and then we give them a pamphlet to read. We say “Can we provide any service for you today?” and they always say “No, I have lots of kids to help me.” and then we ask them to pray (after explaining prayer) and they say they don’t know how and we explain again and then we ask again and they stare at us like we never asked a question. Finally one of us offers and we leave and I want to die. Lots of the time I think the lesson went great and I am like whaoooo they are coming to church and my comp is so discouraged. Anyway that’s how it goes. Oh, I forgot. When we ask if we can come back, they always say “We can see Christ in you girls. We love what you are doing here. I bet lots of people turn you away. We will always receive you in our home, feed you, listen to you, but we have our own church we go to on Sunday. I read the bible every day. My family is all Catholic, this really is not for us.
It’s really hard. We never know who is worth going to see a second time because we never know if they are going to progress. Anyway, we had one golden investigator, Pedro, and he was all set to be baptized this coming Saturday. He just needed to go to church one more time. We have taught him everything, he has accepted all the commandments. We get to church Sunday and no one comes. No one. We invited 18 people to church and no one came, not even Pedro. I felt soo bad. When we call him he doesn’t answer. We don’t know what we are going to do. We just have to remember that when we are rejected they are rejecting Christ, not us. It’s just hard because everyone seems to be so religious. One man asked me this week, “If I came to you and said will you be baptized in the Catholic Church would you?” I thought he was asking what I knew about the Catholic Church and in bad Spanish I said I would need to be able to speak better Spanish to answer that. He started laughing but apparently my comp told him that if God told her to, she would. I thought that was a good answer. That man we were trying to contact said we could come to his house anytime but if we want to share messages from the Bible, like the ones before, he didn’t want to hear it. It was really weird. We were like “Aren’t you Catholic? Don’t you believe in the Bible! The people here are so confusing!!!
I like it though. The more we teach, the more people know us. It’s crazy how much people already know. We say our name and they say “Mormones, ya I know you guys.” and most have listened to missionaries before. When we walk down the street I recognize so many people and we always wave and they are so nice and polite to us. I love it here. I love how laid back the people are and friendly and willing to listen.
One thing that is hard, we will teach two different families that live pretty far apart and then we go to one’s house and the other family is there. This happened last night. We went to Pedro’s house to see why he didn’t come to church and his sister, who accepted a date but also didn’t come to church, was outside with a woman we had taught this week and also invited to church. They both said sit and we did. Then when we tried to share a lesson they wouldn’t even look at us. This morning I was reading in John when Peter denies Christ. That’s what I felt like. I was like, earlier this week you loved us, what happened!!
I love it in Paraguay, though. It’s so beautiful and out in the compo there is this sweet smell in the air. It always sounds like the 4th of July fireworks go off day and night all over. haha Sometimes it makes me jump because they sound like they are right next to you.
Ahh, this is such a long letter and I haven’t got to the best part. The church campaign for Christmas is “He is the gift”. The video is so great, watch it! We are sharing it with everyone. We carry this old crappy dvd player and show it in every lesson. It is so powerful. You should all share it on Facebook with your testimony.
I love how it’s so hot but it’s still Christmas. There are nativities and lights on houses and they will have like a tree in the front yard with ornaments and tinsel. haha I love it.
I love you all. Sorry if this is so scatter brained.
Hermana Ball
Doing the pronunciation exercise |
My desk |
Our kitchen |
Look How Tan I Am! |
Just Kidding. This is after washing them. |
Thanksgiving with the district |
Us smelling the sweet smell of Paraguay |
The meal I made for us. |
My first zone conference. I had no idea what was happening. |
We made the cake that Charlsie sent and inside the oven all the cockroaches burned. It was gross!! |
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
I made it through my first week in good old Paraguay!!!
This is our pet, Tina Fey, she lives across the street. |
So drum roll please....my trainer is Hermana Escobar from El Salvador!!!! When I first met her I was so scared. I sat next her saying nothing. Then she finally said “I speak English...” hahah and we were off on our best friendship. I am so relieved she speaks English but at the same time it’s hard to remember to speak Spanish. Also she gets frustrated when I struggle to say something in Spanish. Finally she says, “What are you trying to say?” hah but she is so great and I love her. When I met her I quickly asked what our area was called (like I would know it or something), Coronel Oviedo, or zone 13. President had told us the day before that only 3 zones were really compo or like farm land, 11 through 14. I was so stoked to be in the compo. Our whole mission is 4 hours wide. I don’t know how you would put that, from Asuncion to the farthest part is 4 hours. Our area took 3 hours to get to outside Asuncion on a big bus. Immediately my trainer fell asleep and I was left to look at Paraguay speed by as we bounced along on the bus. It was so cool. I watched the city fade away in the distance and then it would be pure jungle and then a city would randomly pop out of nowhere. After 3 hours we finally got to the terminal. We got off and loaded all my bags into a tiny car that looked like it was 100 years old. They drive psycho here and the whole time I feared for my life. Our area is perfect. We live like two blocks outside our area in a city and then you start walking and the longer you walk the more compo it gets. It’s way cool. I have never been to a place quite like Paraguay, which is one of my favorite things about Paraguay. After being in Argentina for 6 weeks Paraguay is such a breath of fresh air. The cab dropped us off at our pention.
Ok so if you were worried for my safety need no fear. Paraguay
is the safest place, really. I asked all the missionaries and no one has ever
been robbed or felt in danger. And, unlike Puerto Rico and Argentina the houses
don’t have bars and multiple gates. Actually, many don’t even have a front door
or glass in the windows. So anyway when I saw our pention I was feeling scared
because I felt like Paraguay was not going to be safe. After entering a gate we
walked down a hall then we unlocked a metal sliding door with a huge bolt. Then
we locked that and you are technically in our house. You walk up the stairs and
open another normal metal door and then you are inside for real. So again, I am
very safe but here it’s not even necessary, I think they are just overly
cautious.
The first day we came home and planned and headed out. I was
so scared..... here are some things I didn’t expect about Paraguay. Everyone,
after I say I am from America, says “oh, so do you speak Guadani...?” ummm Well, considering I don’t even really
speak Spanish, no, I do not. And Guadani is the craziest language I have ever
heard. It sounds like Asian or something mixed with Spanish. They never just
speak Guadani, its Guadani and Spanish. And their Spanish, they never finish
the whole word. So as you can see, I went from Argentina feeling like I could
teach a whole lesson in Spanish alone to here feeling like I can’t even understand
when someone asks my name! Most of the time I just fake it and pretend I know
what is going on, smile when my comp does and laugh.. but then they ask a
question and they are looking right at me... and all I do is stare at them and
say como? (what?).... it’s very embarrassing. Sometimes my comp tells me what
they say but a lot of time she doesn’t and I just feel so dumb and I want to
cry and I wonder why am I on a mission. But then I remind myself oh ya, it’s
because I love my Heavenly Father so much. ha The other thing that I didn’t
expect is that people are friendly. I thought Argentina was friendly but no...
here we walk up to a house and clap at the gate but almost always the whole
family is sitting outside. I really don’t know how anyone makes a living, they
always seem to be home just sitting around all drinking out of the same mate
cup. Anyway so then before we can even introduce ourselves they open the gate
and pull up two chairs and start talking so fast and I am lost. Later my comp
tells me what they said, sometimes she doesn’t haha. But basically every lesson
we teach is 45 min at least. We really need to work on it. Yesterday we talked
to this old man for an hour and he was speaking Guadani the whole time and it
was really hot and I was so tired and I kept falling asleep, it was really bad.
I have had that problem a couple times. I get so tired of listening and I just
start to fall asleep. I am working on that as well. The first few days all I
would say is, “Hi, how are you? I'm Hermana Ball.” and my comp would say the
rest. Then I made a goal to bear my testimony at each lesson even though when I
do they just look at me like they have no idea what I am saying, but that’s ok.
It’s hard to contribute to the lesson when you don’t know what’s going on at
all. But we have never had someone say no to a lesson or letting us come back. This
is a curse and a blessing because we are constantly teaching but it’s hard to
tell if they are truly interested or not.
So the first night we went to bed and I was feeling like ya
this place is not so different then America, I can do this. I hadn’t seen any
bugs or spiders in our pention. I was feeling really good. Then.... the next
morning when my comp was showering I picked up a box with different food in it
and I screamed. The whole box was full of probably like 100-200 cockroaches
(even though I expected them to be as long as my finger and they are about the
size of a quarter) it still freaked me out so bad!! I started frantically whacking
them with a broom as they scampered away into unseen corners of the pention. My
comp came out and was like “What’s wrong?” By this point, of course, there were
only like three and she looked at me like, really? and went back to what she
was doing. I felt way dumb, but it really creeped me out. I couldn’t eat like
the rest of that day. By the third day I was so hungry that I stopped caring. They
only eat breakfast and lunch here so if you don’t eat a lot at those meals you
starve. I feel hungry all the time but I think it’s just because I am eating
normal portions again, unlike the huge feasts of the CCM. I hope I don’t sound
negative. I really, really love it here. My first two days were just a little
hard but now I am completely adapted.
So we study til lunch and then we go out prolitismo and man
it is so hot in the middle of the day. They just keep saying its primovera (spring,
it’s just spring) and I am like sweating so bad. Sooo I am scared for what
verano (summer) will bring. I have a whole new meaning to “they live like 30
min away”... a 30 min walk on a dirt road in the middle of the day is very
different from a nice ride in an air conditioned car. hahah But we just sing hymns
and try and enjoy it. My favorite time of day is dusk. It gets cool and the
sunsets are soo pretty and then when the sun goes down the stars come out and
they are soooo pretty, but even when we are walking on a dirt road in the
jungle there are street lights. It’s very strange, so it’s hard to see the
stars and my most favorite thing when it’s night is that the fireflies come out
or mua mua in guadani!!! I hadn’t seen fireflies in forever. We were teaching a
lesson one night and it flew across my face and I just got soooo happy!
The weird thing about Paraguay is that even though it is
sooo poor almost everyone we talk to has a cell phone. They can’t give you an
address to where they live, but they have a phone number. haha We always draw
little maps to remember where they live. I would be so lost without my comp. It’s
so confusing here, everything looks the same to me. The other thing is everyone
has a motorcycle. Even if its way old they have one and it’s common to see 2, 3,
4, 5, people on one bike. The most I have seen is 5. A man with two little kids
behind him and two in front. It’s so weird, a little infant will be clinging
for dear life in front of his mom. The other thing is no one wears helmets
and there is no real age limit. So I saw like a 6 year old, seriously, I am not
exaggerating, driving a motorcycle the other day, it’s way creepy. Sometimes we
look at them whizzing past and, well, I begin to covet ahha. But it’s good.
Because we walk, we talk to lots of people.
Sunday rolls around and one of our investigators, Pedro,
came!!! We were so happy! We are teaching him today and hope he can be baptized
in 2 weeks. We will see... anyway we are sitting in sacrament and I am just out
of “what’s going on?” and my comp leans to me and says “the bishop just asked
all the new missionaries to come and bear their testimony.” I wanted to cry. But
I went up and I did it and it probably made no sense, but I did it! I told them
I knew this was the true church and that’s why I am here and I said that I love
them and that I know Christ loves them and I am excited to be serving
here.
That’s the other thing I didn’t realize, I am so use to
never seeing the missionaries in Utah because they have like a whole stake they
are over, but here we have 3 sets of missionaries for 1 branch. It’s crazy! Church
was really different. The power was off so all the classes were taught in the
dark. I was asked to read a passage in gospel doctrine. That was really hard
but luckily everyone had a book so they could read it too ha.
The other hard thing is my comps previous companion, Hermana
Arrnell was apparently amazing and everyone always looks at me and says where
is Hermana Arrnell and they miss her and I can’t speak Spanish to make them
like me so they just always look at me like why are you here?... it’s
hard.
The roads go from asphalt to straight dirt, it’s weird. And
cobblestone, they like mash up rock and then put the dirt on top. Basically my
feet are always red. I can never tell if I am tan or just still have a layer of
dirt. haha
Saturday one of the members came teaching with us. It was
really hard because he talked a lot giving me even less time in the lesson to
try and say something. But I did get to do the first vision she always has me
do that and I messed it up so bad and I wanted to cry because in my mind I was
thinking she is going to say yes to be baptized. I knew it and then I heard her
say no and I was like it’s because you didn’t hit it home with the first
vision. As we walked away I wanted to just curl up and cry forever. Later that
night at planning we were going over numbers and she said people with a date
and I said 0 and she said no 1 and I was like como!!!!!!!!!!! and she said ya
remember that lesson we taught and it was the one I thought I ruined. Ya, she
said she will be baptized if she receives an answer. I was sooo happy! But then
she didn’t show up to church so I was crushed, but we visited her and her
husband was there and we shared about the el Libro de Mormon and he was sooo interested.
I talked a lot in the lesson and he accepted a date too!!!! So that is our
golden family right now.
Anyway the change before was Hermana Arnall’s last change
and now she is home. Apparently they didn’t work hard so we only had one
investigator when I got here, Pedro, but when we gave our numbers last night we
had 22 new which means we have taught 22 lessons since I got here. That was
crazy to me. Anyway things are hard. I am just doing my best to learn the
language and teach. I love you allllllllll sooo much. My heart hurts when I
think of you.
I am sorry if this was so scatter brained, ha but I love you.
oh PS: I only have an hour to email so maybe if some of you
could hand write me that would be cool. If not, it’s ok. I can still print here.
I just have to pay money, anyway that’s ok.
xoxoxoxoo
Hermana Ball
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
I'm Alive - Nov 18, 2014
So we just got to the mission home after our hour and a half
flight from good old Argentina. Our mission president picked us up from the
airport and made sure we got our visas. I love him already and the amazing
thing is I can pretty much understand what he says. He told me if I read El
Libro de Mormon every day I will be able to speak Spanish in three months. So I
am banking on that promise.
When I saw Paraguay from the sky I just started crying.
These are my people! I love it here already! It was immediately obvious how
much hotter it is here. But I love it. We are staying in a hotel tonight, well
just the sisters, the elders are staying in this ghetto room at the mission
home. I guess they love us a lot and tomorrow I get to meet my trainer. Odds
are she will be Latino. President told me there are 5 trainers for us 5 newbies
and 4 are Latino. I have faith that the Lord and President know what they are
doing, but that news made my heart stop dead.
The last day at the CCM was so emotional. I know most people
want out bad but I think Argentina is special. I loved my CCM time so much. President
Willis put it good, “It’s like the Garden of Eden, you have learned everything
you can. You have to move on to progress”.
So that’s what I am doing.
It was lots of tear filled goodbyes and now I am here and
just ready to work.
I love you all so much. I pray for you!!!
xoxoxoxoxo
Hermana Ball
November 17, 2014
Hey family guess what! I leave the
CCM tomorrow morning at 4 am. We head to the airport and our flight leaves at
7:15. There are 18 total of us heading to Paraguay, including Latinos. The
flight is about an hour. The flight name is AR2260. I know most people say they
are so ready to leave, but seriously, the last two days have been so emotional.
We are all having a hard time saying goodbye, we have grown so close. But Elder
Christofferson from the 12 was here on Sunday and everything he said was
exactly what I needed to be ready. So I am really, really excited to head to Paraguay.
I love you all so much! Hopefully I will write you when I get there, if not, I
will write you next P day.
xoxoxoox
Hermana Ball
PS: I felt bad that I forgot to
mention that we finally got the big red Spanish book. I am way happy. I love
you all so much!!!!!
Thursday, November 13, 2014
If El Woods Can Get into Harvard, I Can Learn Spanish!
Hey family,
Man the days
are long but the weeks fly by. First off Proselitismo. Rozsa and I switched areas.
Our old area was like a suburb and now it’s a very busy city. It’s very very
intimidating to walk down a very busy city and try and talk to people who have
no desire to talk to you. We got like 20 contacts and 3 referrals, but all of
our referrals were golden. Two of them were at the same time. We stopped at this lady selling stuff on the
road. She had these way cool fanny packs that she makes. (pictures to come) So
we told her and another lady who stopped to look at them that we were
missionaries. They both spoke English which was actually not that much easier
because I guess I am losing my English or maybe never had it to begin with. One
of the ladies said her father has cancer and she needs faith. The other said
that she loves Mormons and she took a Book of Mormon. it was way way cool. Other
than that, proselitismo was kind of a downer. We came home kind of discouraged,
it’s hard not to compare with everyone else’s numbers. But I am so proud of
everyone, it was the new North Americans first time and they all did so good.
So on to Sunday.
Oh man, it was soooo good like always, the highlight was Hermana Willis. *The
cool part about a small MTC is we get to know the MTC President and his wife
and their councilors so well. They are like our parents. I love them so much! Hermana Willis talked about gratitude. She
gave us a talk by President Uchtodorf called “Grateful in any Circumstance”. A
quote I really liked was “perhaps focusing on what we are grateful for is
the wrong approach. It is difficult to develop a spirit of gratitude if our
thankfulness is only proportional to the number of blessings we can count. True,
it is important to frequently count our blessings... but I don’t believe that
the Lord expects us to be less thankful in times of trial than in times of
abundance and ease.” I loved this so so
much!!! I hope you can all remember that this week and try to be thankful in
the circumstance you are in. You should all reread this talk.
Monday was
our group picture. It’s finally settling in that we are leaving the CCM. So I
knew about this last week but part of me didn’t believe, it so I didn’t tell
you. But they told us that today we would be going to see Elder Russell M Nelson
speak, and because of this we would not attend the temple. Wednesday we got a surprise,
we got to go to the temple! It was sooo great to be there one last time. I have
grown to love the temple workers and this temple so much even with it being in Spanish.
I love it so much.
So that gets
us to today. Why I didn’t write earlier today is because we got up and loaded
into buses at 7:30 to head to a stake to listen to Elder Nelson. He shook each
of our hands and looked into our eyes. It was incredible! We met with the
missionaries from this mission, the Buenos Aries, Argentina South and listened
to the words of an apostle of the Lord. He was also with a member of the Seventy
who spoke Spanish so he and his wife’s talks were in Spanish. I got about 50
percent-ok 40, but what I got of it was really good. Then Sister Nelson stood.
That woman is so amazing! She talked to us about how we are feeling as
missionaries and she told some amazing stories about her experiences. One in
particular that was cool - she said she was in Russia at a Women’s Conference
and she felt impressed to say, “I want to get to know you all by lineage” she
called out each lineage and people would stand. She said 11 of the 12 tribes
were present. All but Levi. Maybe this was not news to you, but I kind of
thought everyone on the earth but a few special people were from the tribe of Ephraim. I was shocked to hear this. She said that
news travels so fast in the church that by that next day when they met at a
conference in Romania the first thing the mission president’s wife said when
she stepped off the plane was “I got Levi.” She had a missionary who was of
that tribe so within the space of two days she met someone from each tribe. It
was so cool to hear her stand and say “The gathering of Israel is upon us, Elders
and Hermanas, you get to be a part of this amazing work.” She told us that when
we teach our children our ancestors and the ancestors of those we teach are
there, particularly the ones we teach. They are begging and waiting for their
family to receive the gospel. Then she said, “Think of the impact of your
missions, not only in this world.” It really made me remember what missionary
work is all about. Oh I forgot one other thing she said was her 30 day
challenge, which I am challenging all of you to do. Each day grab the scriptures and thank God
for them. Tell Him your hardest and deepest questions of your soul and ask that
the Holy Ghost will be with you throughout your study. Then open to a random
page and feast. Look up words, the foot notes, everything. You won’t have to
read far until your question will be answered. I thought “Wow, this is an
amazing promise from an Apostle’s wife. She said “there is no asterisk that
says unless your problem is learning the language, no anything you need will be
provided.” How wonderful is that!
Then Elder Nelson
spoke and man, I love him! At the beginning he did the very thing his wife
talked about. He had each tribe stand. At our meting we had two tribes present,
which was still way cool, Joseph and Judah. When he said Joseph we didn’t know
that meant Ephraim, so again I felt way dumb, haha, but he reminded us. He was
so informal - he kept saying “I have a surprise, the mission president and his
wife are going to share their one tip of advice, it was to “work hard and to be
obedient.” Oh, the president of the CCM and his wife, Hermana
Willis said “Go and do” and president, who is like a way rough man, he is just
really to the point about the gospel, got all teary eyed and said “You are
loved by the Lord so immensely.” That struck me so hard. The rest of Elder Nelson’s
talk was about how we need to be simple when teaching the gospel. This made me
happy because my Spanish vocab is so so so simple. I don’t remember everything
he said but it just seemed like direct inspiration that I needed so badly. He
left us with an apostolic blessing and it included those we left at home who
were sick or needed healing. That made me cry, he told us the Lord will protect
our families.
I love you
all so much! I think of you so much! I may get to email when I leave Tuesday
and when I arrive in Paraguay. If not, next time you hear from me I will be in
Paraguay!!!! It seems so unreal to me! The church is true and I love all of you.
xoxooxox
Hermana Ball
Friday, November 7, 2014
I'm Not Dead Yet
All the girls going to Paraguay |
Our Latin roommates that left |
Rich y Brons |
The day we got here. Playing mud soccer with the old North Americans. |
The Sister I am hugging is from Spain. I love her so much. I am going to miss her! |
Man another week gone by, I can’t believe I have almost been gone a whole month!
So there are a few things I keep forgetting to say. First off, when the new North Americans arrived we told them that touching this Nephi statue in the girl’s dorms every time you pass it, gives you good luck. So pretty much we started a CCM tradition. We didn’t tell them we made it up. That’s random, I know, but I think it’s so cool that they believed us. I’m excited for Megan Gilchrist to get here and for her to tell me if it’s still going on. Second, before the new Americans came, we moved our room around so our bed would be by the window. Now every night when I lay in bed I can see the temple shinning thorough my window. I love it so much.
So Halloween!!! I totally forgot to say Happy Halloween last week sorry. I loved seeing all the pictures. I think some of you have the wrong idea about emailing. I can read your emails all week because I print them. So don’t hold back. Send as much as you can. I love pictures too. I can print them off too. So ya, I just usually respond to the week’s before emails this week if that makes sense. So keep them up. I wouldn’t send anything else through the pouch or by mail because I only have like 12 more days or maybe less here and stuff keeps coming for the old missionaries and I feel so bad because who knows when or if they will ever get it. So email is good enough for me for now.
Ok now to the good stuff. Halloween was way fun. Everyone dressed up like their comps. I was Rozsa. haha I got to wear her clothes and badge and sit in her desk. It was way funny other than that it was a normal day except our teacher also brought us cookies and we got some candy from president, so that was fun.
Saturday was PROSALETISMO again!!! Oh man, it was soooo cool. We were in the same area and it was really cold, it has been raining a lot this past week. It was so cold I was wearing my rain coat. Which is huge because usually it’s really, really hot. Anyway we were just taking random turns and just looking for someone, anyone to talk to us. Then we realized we hadn’t said a prayer so we just stopped and said one and literally a few min after that we saw the house of our golden family from last week, the Scarlots. Guess what, the mother had just stepped outside to put something in the trash and saw us and just opened the gate and let us in like it was normal. We went in their house and sat down and we talked to them for a good 5 min just about their week and how they were doing. They told us that no other missionaries had come by, which made us sad because we gave their info to them. We asked them if we could share a message. It was soooo cool. We taught them all about the restoration and El Libro de Mormon. They said they went to our church long ago and they loved the spirit there but then they moved and never went again. The mother was really interested because she said she was divorced and that they were married now. She asked how our church feels about that because when she was divorced the Catholic Church she went to basically said not to come back. I told her that my parents were divorced and the gospel is what helped our family get through it. I bore my testimony to her of the truthfulness of the gospel. Of course this is just whatI was getting. She could have been saying something else, this was all in Spanish. But it was lucky because her husband kind of spoke English and if we didn’t know something, he would help us. They agreed to take a Book of Mormon and some pamphlets. It was so so cool. We prayed with them and I felt the spirit so so strong. We told them we would make sure the missionaries came by this week. We left feeling soooo good. The rest of the day no one really talked to us but we felt so successful. The best part is when we got back to the CCM and told our teacher she talked to the head teacher and he let us call the sisters over that area and tell them about the family and gave them personally the info. I stared crying so hard. I couldn’t even talk, Rozsa had to. It all just felt so real. I could see that family in white and benefiting so much from the gospel. I fasted for them on Sunday. We are anxious to hear something about that, but we may never because this Saturday we will be given a new area.
Sunday my district decided to do a musical number, I Stand All Amazed, this was a huge deal because the boys really didn’t want to, but we convinced them. It was so spiritual. I felt such a deep love for all of them, as we sang of our combined love for the Savior. Sundays are always the best, so much inspiration. We talked about enduring to the end. I kept thinking that missions are so so different than I ever thought, or at least mine has been up to this point. The best part is Heavenly Father is with us every step.
It’s hard because I know the CCM is about obedience but for some reason some of the rules are so hard to keep, like no pictures and not eating outside the caf. But I am doing my best to be completely obedient and I have definitely improved this week. It’s just such a slow process and I feel like I am nowhere near ready to leave.
When the new North Americans came we found out that they got a Spanish for Missionaries book that we didn’t get because they ran out and we still haven’t gotten. But the book is so good, it has all these lessons and worksheets to study. We have two other books but that one is like real lessons. We basically just have phrases. For the longest time I was so mad that they were progressing so fast, it’s hard not to be mad because we still haven’t gotten the book. We have one for our whole class, but I guess the Lord is trying to teach me something.
Ok, I love you all so much. I wish I could say so much more. I love you all. I hope you all had successful fasts. I had my first real 24 hour fast, I think I have ever done. It’s easy because they just don’t have food. ha It was way hard but I had some really important things to fast for so it wasn’t hard.
I love you
xoxooxox
Hermana Ball
PS: Each elder here reminds me of one of my brothers. Elder Burgess especially reminds me of Dan soooo much, he is from Canada. Everything he says reminds me of Dan and makes me miss dan so much. We have one elder, Eastmond, who reminds me of Mar. He is so thoughtful and is always leaving me scriptures to read when he sees I am sad. Elder Droubay, our district leader, reminds me of Ster. He is so business-like and dignified. He is also caring, but has to keep us inline. No one really reminds me of Bran yet, probably cuz no one is quite like Bran. Elder Neil is like Ethan. He is my best friend here. He always makes me laugh really hard because of his laugh. But at the same time they all drive meeee nuts! All summer I wanted to hang out with boys and now I am with them all day, every day. I wish we could just have a district of Hermanas, haha. But they need us, really they do. This week they kept throwing paper airplanes everywhere. 5 hit Rozsa in the face. It made her so mad, hahah so ya we have to parent them a lot, but that’s ok. I still love them.
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